Past… The most horrible feeling for a person to deal with. It is like an unnecessary and unavoidable chaos which controls your thoughts and emotions.

It was not by choice, it was forced on her mind by her heart full of agony, pain and somewhere little bit of guilt, that she could have avoided it. But never did she knew, ‘what is destined can’t be avoided’.

It was getting heavy for her, she could do nothing but think about what a horrible experience she had years back. It was easy for every other person to say, ‘ forget it!’ but only she knew what she was experiencing! living that pain, that rage for years was not very easy for her.

Unknowingly, she gave her past, control over her life. She didn’t realise that she was loosing her life living on the basis of her past. Only one thing which was holding her back was her love for books. But how long she will hold, she didn’t even knew.

It was not like, she wasn’t fighting with it, she was fighting very hard to face her past and tear the pain out of her life. But where did she knew! past never really leaves your thoughts, its just that you start ignoring it. But now, She was learning to do that, ignore her past.

The broken trust, shame, and insult, ripped her heart out completely. She gained the fear of trust, fear of friendship, fear of getting closer to someone. Her past changed her completely.

It took her years to fight against her fears and stand up against the demons of her past life. She is not afraid, she is not in pain, but as it is said, ‘Every wound leaves a scar behind’, she also had some scar from her past wounds. She was now strong and confident, but deep down in her she had the fear of trust, she had the fear of closeness, she had the fear of betrayal, she had the fear of love. But she never let her scars scratch her happiness, they were buried in heart and awaken in her memory.

She had lost enough but yet she managed to evolve the existence of her soul. She left behind her sorrows and filled the emptiness of her life with a new ray of sunshine. Her past is just like a another lesson of life. She is now happy and has full control over her demons.